Control, Competition and Consciousness

By Natasha Currah, 889 Yoga teacher. Natasha has been influenced by numerous teachings on understanding anatomical movement, and her teaching style draws from numerous disciplines. Her instruction is designed to build an intimate relationship with the body that illuminates a transition into the mystical aspect of yoga. With a constant emphasis on the breath, alignment and the practice of presence, her intention is to assist students in cultivating joy and bliss within. 

February 25, 2013. Half way into my second pregnancy I wanted to reflect on a journal entry that I wrote in the first 2 months.  Adjusting to changes in my body and emotions was an even bigger roller coaster ride this time around, but re-reading this again, feeling more rooted in this new chapter in my life, I understand how truly relevant it is….to everyone.

“…Im realizing (again) that I try to control my environment when I feel out of touch with my body, my practice/ability to quiet my mind or when I‘m emotionally/mentally over stretched (or all three).   The constant comparison I do on my every move (usually after its been done) to others I know/have seen/make up in my head causes a cycle of unfair judgement.  It makes me feel overwhelmingly negative…and revisiting to this pattern throughout my life over is also defeating.    As I find the space and time I will:

– Accept everything that I do without attachment to it

– Accept and support others for their ability to make choices for themselves.

– Love with all my heart though my body and mind maybe depleted.  I will never regret overextending myself to show love, but I may regret ambivalence.”

This is an entry that serves as a very helpful reminder for me.  Although my condition  for control and competition has submerged below my surface of consciousness once more, I know from that place it is somehow encouraging me to continue to practice yoga, breath and loving kindness.  We all have unexpected opportunities in our lives to “hold up the mirror”, but it is within that opportunity we have the chance to authentically see parts of ourselves that call for attention, repair or just simply love.

More from Natasha by visiting her website or take class with her at 889 Yoga:

Yonge Street Classes
Tuesdays 5:45 – 7:00pm (L 2/3)
Tuesdays 7:15 – 8:15pm (Prenatal)
Fridays 9:30am – 10:45am (L 2)
Sundays 10:30am – 11:45am (L 1)

Thompson Hotel (King West) Classes
Thursdays 6:00pm – 7:15pm (L 2)
Thursdays 7:30pm – 8:45pm (L 1)